Am i lez....help me please?

Help. I'm not a slut but I do like guys. Never had . But me and my best friend are really close and I think I might like her we hold hands all the time and I kiss her cheek but latly I want her to be mine. Not physically at all I still want guys that way but I think I'm in love with her.help me. She's not like that at all and I don't know if I am but ppl thought we were together once and she was grossed out by the thought of us being like legit. Please helpp